My Way Seems Easier

- Tonight was rather fun. I had two friends come over (Amy & Candice) and we painted and had our little "girl talk". It helped me to be able to take my mind off of things for a few hours. I am thankful for times like that. I am also very thankful that those are the kind of friends that I have... ones that will just sit down, paint, and have a good time doing it. It really almost made me feel like a kid again.

But then, they leave.... and it all sets back in. I'M NOT A KID ANYMORE. Oh how things have changed. Not that I would ever want things to be different, just MY way. That does sound very selfish. I know. I need to work on that. Life is just so hard at times and it just seems like things would be so much easier MY way. But, God has different plans.


- Thursday is drawing near. I am dreading all of this testing. I know that God is going to work all of this out and I keep reminding myself that Michael just needs to get the help he deserves and we can move forward with all of this. I wish I would have done things diffently... thinking that things wouldn't be the way they are right now. I just keep praying that things will change and I won't feel the way that I do. It's NOT a good feeling at all. I hate seeing him like this. I just don't have the answers... if only I did.

- Still no puppies. I may be off by a few days, but I was certain that they would have been here by now. Chloe isn't acting as strange as she was yesterday so I'm not sure what to expect. I guess it's all just a waiting game. They will be here when they get here. I'm just so nerves that she is going to have them when Tim is not at home and something will go wrong. I always think the worst about everything. (I get that honestly from my mother) That too is something that I really need to work on. But, I'll just save all of that for another blog. It's liable to be the best one yet!